im not alright

If weakness is a wound
That no one wants to speak of
Then “cool” is just how far we have to fall
I am not immune
I only want to be loved
But I feel safe behind the firewall
Can I lose my need to impress?
If you want the truth, I need to confess

I’m not alright
I’m broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through
It leads me to you, it leads me to you

Burn away the pride
Bring me to my weakness
Until everything I hide behind is gone
And when I’m open wide
With nothing left to cling to
Only you are there to lead me on
Cause honestly, I’m not that strong

I’m not alright
I’m broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through
It leads me to you, it leads me to you

And I move, and I move, and I move...closer to you
And I move, and I move, and I move...closer to you
And I move, and I move, and I move...closer to you
And I move, and I move, and I move...

I’m not alright
I’m broken inside, broken inside
broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through
Leads me to you, leads me to you

I’m not alright, I’m not alright, I’m not alright...that’s why I need you


i was at the sanctus real concert last night on campus for our LU block party, and they played this song. I love it, its something that i can really relate to right now in life...with drama and such--blech. it so easily describes what happens when your in a rut, or when you just say "ill be fine". well i have to let God have control of things. i have to let go of what im holding onto in my life that could just be something to stumble on. And for me that can be really hard, because i dont like to leave things unsettled. sometimes im going to have to. i have to admit that im not alright, i need to lose the pride that i have built up, and i cant just try to work through everything myself and just say ill be fine. I do need God, i cant do anything on my own.