God's plan...just for me.

Its really neat. Sometimes im not sure what to do about things, and im not sure what i want, how i want things, or whats going to happen to me. the worse has to be when im not sure what i want. but...whether or not i do know, or if im confused, i can always rest on the fact that God knows where i will end up. how awesome is that? I dont know A LOT. but i have a God who knows everything. ive really had a feel for doing missions recently. im scared about it. ive never thought that i would ever do something like that. I mean it not like i dont doing that stuff, because the missions trips that ive been on in the past were probably my most memorable expierences. but go overseas? risk my life? be uncomfortable with the people around me, the culture, and whats happening? thats scary. but if its what God wants for me...
ive only shared this with a few people that im really close with. its something ive been praying about. and i get frustrated because i dont know what i want. but i really just want to be able to share with those who dont know God, i want them to be able to feel what its like to have a personal relationship with our Heavenly Father. Any believer would agree that its the most amazing expierence! why not share it?
so heres my thinking. im getting frustrated or confused because im not sure sometimes about what i want. so...so what? thats completely fine. im not always going to know. BUT i can use my frustration or confusion, and thank God for it. Hes making me think about things in life that are important. And through all of it im only growing closer to him.