time to get my priorities straight and stop being distracted...time to make an effort. God help me want to be closer to you. this constant battle has become extremely heavy on my heart.
I have got no one to blame
Except if that someone's me
I washed my hands, but just the same
My eyes confess for me
I come in filthy rags
You know I'm guilty
I wake up almost every night
Saying Your name
What I would give to walk in the light
But what I hide has made me lame
My face down on the ground
I wait to hear the healing sound
You break through my deafness
Swing open the curtain
And I find the courage to get up and walk
I forget my weakness
For You've answered my loneliness
And through the mud on my eyes
I can see my Hope has come
You'll have to show me where to go
It's been so long since I've used my feet
I got up today a cripple
And now I'm dancing
So let the power of Your move
Not stop with what I can see
I couldn't walk
I couldn't sing
I couldn't love until You found me
Monday, December 07, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
being content.
im working on it.
im having a hard time right now though.
im stressed...and i dont normally get too stressed.
theres alot going on.
BUT heres the deal. its the whole "the more you seek God, the more youll find him".
God puts us through trials, big or small, so that we will grow more in him. So that we can learn from them. About ourselves, but also more about God.
its ironically a really cool thing.
Colossians 3:14-17 Above all, clothe yourselves with love, which binds us all together in perfect harmony. And let the peace that comes from Christ rule in your hearts. For as members of one body you are called to live in peace. And always be thankful. Let the message about Christ, in all its richness, fill your lives. Teach and counsel each other with all the wisdom he gives. Sing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs to God with thankful hearts. And whatever you do or say, do it as a representative of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks through him to God the Father.
im having a hard time right now though.
im stressed...and i dont normally get too stressed.
theres alot going on.
BUT heres the deal. its the whole "the more you seek God, the more youll find him".
God puts us through trials, big or small, so that we will grow more in him. So that we can learn from them. About ourselves, but also more about God.
its ironically a really cool thing.
Colossians 3:14-17 Above all, clothe yourselves with love, which binds us all together in perfect harmony. And let the peace that comes from Christ rule in your hearts. For as members of one body you are called to live in peace. And always be thankful. Let the message about Christ, in all its richness, fill your lives. Teach and counsel each other with all the wisdom he gives. Sing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs to God with thankful hearts. And whatever you do or say, do it as a representative of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks through him to God the Father.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
sleepless...
its just one of those nights...
i have alot on my mind. more than usual.
i cant sleep...so im here.
i cant come to terms with whats happening with my family right now. my grandpa, whom ive written about before, is just slowly slipping away. yesterday my cousin was in a really bad car accident in which his head went through the windshield. after more than 3 hours of surgery they still arent going to know whether or not he will be losing one of his eyes because there is still glass in it, and both of his eyes are swollen shut, not to mention the continual draining of his back to prevent meningitis, a bruised brain and other complications that he has right now as well. i could list everything...but thats not the point.
i really admire my aunt. she has taken on taking care of my grandpa. she has alot going on in her own personal life that it completely putting huge strain on her everyday. and now her son is in the trauma unit, sedated, with alot of unanswered questions about his recovery. my aunt is a strong woman. she looks to God in the middle of this crazy storm. she keeps moving when its really easy to just break down.
besides the things that are happening in my family i also have my own things happening. changes in my own life...and some personal things that iv been thinking about.
wheres God? He's right here.even when i dont feel like he is.even when im ready to give up, im reminded that hes not giving up on me. my brain is full like an overpacked suitcase. im having trouble gathering my thoughts, ,and you know what...iv been pushing the things that are affecting me aside.
i need to learn to deal with things. and NOT by myself. i have a relationship with God, and i need God to deal with the things in my life. hes the one who has plans for me. he knows why things happen to me. its as simple as trusting in him. so am i having trouble trusting? heh...yea...sometimes i do. because i dont understand.
i need to get over that.
i need to work on some things...but im ready to. and i DO trust that God has it all under control, and that everything i go through, or my family goes through, or a friend goes through...whoever it is, God cares.
psalm 17:7-8
...Lord God, show the wonder of Your great love, You who save by Your right hand those who take refuge in You from their foes. Keep me as the apple of Your eye; hide me in the shadow of Your wings.
i have alot on my mind. more than usual.
i cant sleep...so im here.
i cant come to terms with whats happening with my family right now. my grandpa, whom ive written about before, is just slowly slipping away. yesterday my cousin was in a really bad car accident in which his head went through the windshield. after more than 3 hours of surgery they still arent going to know whether or not he will be losing one of his eyes because there is still glass in it, and both of his eyes are swollen shut, not to mention the continual draining of his back to prevent meningitis, a bruised brain and other complications that he has right now as well. i could list everything...but thats not the point.
i really admire my aunt. she has taken on taking care of my grandpa. she has alot going on in her own personal life that it completely putting huge strain on her everyday. and now her son is in the trauma unit, sedated, with alot of unanswered questions about his recovery. my aunt is a strong woman. she looks to God in the middle of this crazy storm. she keeps moving when its really easy to just break down.
besides the things that are happening in my family i also have my own things happening. changes in my own life...and some personal things that iv been thinking about.
wheres God? He's right here.even when i dont feel like he is.even when im ready to give up, im reminded that hes not giving up on me. my brain is full like an overpacked suitcase. im having trouble gathering my thoughts, ,and you know what...iv been pushing the things that are affecting me aside.
i need to learn to deal with things. and NOT by myself. i have a relationship with God, and i need God to deal with the things in my life. hes the one who has plans for me. he knows why things happen to me. its as simple as trusting in him. so am i having trouble trusting? heh...yea...sometimes i do. because i dont understand.
i need to get over that.
i need to work on some things...but im ready to. and i DO trust that God has it all under control, and that everything i go through, or my family goes through, or a friend goes through...whoever it is, God cares.
psalm 17:7-8
...Lord God, show the wonder of Your great love, You who save by Your right hand those who take refuge in You from their foes. Keep me as the apple of Your eye; hide me in the shadow of Your wings.
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